See through the clouds

"Even with such a parting of the clouds
I can't see with clarity"

Its still as if a fog is impairing visibility

"Its like when ur in prison and
they take off the cuffs and
your like.. Ok wow I...
Then you realize.."

For the mind plays tricks on us
just as frequently as the eyes
when you see water in the desert
and come to find that there's no oasis

A mirage is what you've experiened
for the motivation of your search
was mostly self-reliance
not completely as it should be
Godly devotion, as well as obedience

So though the clouds have parted
and arthurs aches have subsided
You are left with a sense of foreboding
that comes from "not knowing"

'Faith is an assured expectation'
so most surely there will come a revelation
As you peer upon the "evident demonstration"
the reality of the unseen
will become your determination

So you'll pray for it
believing-
'not doubting..
Like the waves of the sea'

But if lacking in wisdom
then request his spirit
and he will grant you love,
joy, peace, kindness and not
to mention long suffering.

Flirting

Loyalty to Jehovah
starts with loyalty to friends
So let's analyze this for a moment
If any of you have the time to bother...
how can you be saying sweet nothings to another
then go back and imply to the other
'You know I love you brother'

'I see such greatness in you
and not to mention your cute too
I think we should take this farther
I mean we can be great service partners....'

Tell me- What in truth is motive
are they just being friends?
Or are they possibly accentuating
a possible means to a possible end?

If that is hard to discern
then it would be reasonable
to meditate on the term
"In want of heart"
For if your motive isn't pure
and clearly obvious from the start
It could betray a desire that's impure
In light of the word of god

The bible speaks of acquiring heart
while an"inexperienced person" is in want of it.
For he either does not care about the penalties and consequences
Or has chosen to disregard it

In light of these critical times
the slave encourages us to consult
the greatest heart specialist
To fight the war within us
That incessant inclination towards badness

Some won't like me after this
and i'll probably be better off
but I intend to reitterate a valuable lesson
hopefully in a memorable way,
by using poetry to talk

Do you want to be the one saying
I need not be loyal in courting and even friendship
I'll just do what I gotto do to get married
then I'll definately learn how to do it

For what I lack now,
Jehovah will give me then..
After all
"Marriage is Gods arrangement"

Well so is the arrangement of reproof
and major congregational discipline
the thing that we witnesses fear
more than Death...
At least we should never wanna experience it

I'm speaking of the issue of flirting
and Jehovah knows that I plead guilty and the fifth
As I reminisce on my past experience
I see it as uncleanness though not to the point of being filth

Which happily
I was able to escape the trenches of my own naievite
though I stepped into another battle
I am happy to be walking upon the surface

For in the trenches of inexperience
You think everything you do
is pretty much alright, i'm cool
I mean none of us are fools,
We're not completely ignorant of the heart
But being in want of heart
is debilitating
It leads us to pursue valueless things
and makes our view of paradisaic things
dimmer down,
in light of the worlds lights glimmering

False light of course,
for what are the results of flirtatiousness
which the slave tell us is:
"behaving amorously without Serious intent"

Coquettish behavior,
Can easily lead to Jehovahs disfavor.
Romantic insinuations carry strong implications,
which can wreak havoc on anothers feelings
for with flirtations - comes "misreadings"
"Yes, youths often naively underestimate the damage
flirting can wreak
on anothers feelings.
A wise proverb says:....
(Read g95 5/8 and you'll get the rest)

A simple reminder my peoples-
Don't be a fool
"Flirtation is misleading, unloving
and often cruel."

So why take that risk?
Develop now the things you need
If you or someone identifies this particular fault
Attack it!
Remove it like a garden weed

'For by your speech and actions,
You can send a clear message
I Am Not
In the Flirting Business!'

Free of confusion

How to clear up confusion,

Since confusion is a frustration
always accompanied by a desire for
understanding
understanding that will lead to a peace of mind
Peace of mind that leads to a subsequent level of
unity
Unity in mind leading to consistency
Consistency leading to an attendance upon the lord
without distraction..

Distractions are everywhere though,
For Satan is an everywhere foe
He doesnt just give up
So neither can I

For that,
I wished that Jehovah would carry me on wings
to a place where i'd be safe and warm
Then span them over me
and keep me safe from the cold..

He's done so..
I still face much though,
The harsh winds of opposition that occur
So high up on this mountain

Where mine and many other nests are perched
High off the ground
that is filled with the vilest of predators
that seek to devour not simply my soul
but my integrity itself..
Satisfied no matter what course the meal may be..

I know their waiting down there for me
To fall off this nest
Or jump inadvertantly
Either way
To devour me
is what they seek...

What do I do next..
Confusion is so frustrating..

Something must shed some light on this
I need some direction
I hear a voice in the distance
but close,
Different but still familiar so I do not doubt,
"Do not be afraid, for I am with you,
Do not gaze about
For I am your God,
I will fortify you,
I will really help you..
I will really keep fast hold of you with my right hand of righteousness"

Listen closely and you'll hear too..
The voice behind you,
saying
"This is the way,
Walk in it you people"

Only then can we all be free of confusion

If You Leave

I'll learn to dream for you
because nights are my chagrin

When your gone
i'll imagine i'm here with you and I will sing

To your eyes
i'll dedicate a line or two

Ooh your smile
I'll reminisce and smile because it was so beautiful

To your lips
I'll speak words of truth and bliss

All the nights we spent consumed
With your thoughts
Bringing a chill that still warms
Rising the hair off my arms.
I adore you
And if you leave tonight
I'll learn to dream for you

When She Sang To Me...

"Listen..
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release.."

An exploding redness in my cheeks
For I know it is to me she doth speak
Suddenly her silence Screams!!
then softly-
Almost effortlessly
a melody
exudes so sweet

her voice, her song
invokes even more beautiful feeling

Suddenly the redness of my cheeks
becomes a channel for tears
a river of fears-disappeared

Now in the arms of music
I wish to sleep...
With sheets of words
warming me
in an embrace
so insatiably sweet

I can only keep still
For at its touch,
comes again the rush
The reaction, so emotion filled..that
My channel-for-tears
Explodes as such
That it forced the lips to hush
for foreign words would have killed..that
exclusivity and beauty,
of her melody..
The song she sang about me...

Your Turn

Remember back when it started.
When I was just being retarded..
I took what you said
and made a joke in my head
then I voiced the feeling
and you continued speaking
why don't we pause for a second
and let's take a peek then:

Starin at the ceiling
Actin like im cleanin
wonderin if I'm dreamin
Whats this crazy feelin?

Restless in my mind
cuz im runnin out of time
cuz time is designed,
to remind and define...

and now i'd like to combine
some new words that 'time'
has brought forth to my mind:

yes time is designed
to remind and define
and also to refine
bringing us closer to the divine
as we preach
to the right-hearted kind

but if we take advantage
of the gift that is handed
then we'll learn
as we're commanded
to be guided by his laws
and his unchanging standards..

Its your turn to remix..
Why not start with this
"But now we just exist
Simple to resist
And persist in a mix.."

"No Air" 1

You know when your teaching someone in the world,
To leave it behind, turn around and serve
The true god jehovah,
With godly devotion and fear
Some actually ask
"Tell me how i'm sposed to breathe with No Air?"

Like- who do they think put air there?
Like they can't breathe without Satans air,
I mean its polluted and dirty and is worsening everywhere
Its amazing how a lack of faith
Is bred from dreadful fear

How the selfish inclination of the heart
Can reason the mind into despair
Making it think- there is no way I can survive anywhere...
Anywhere else but here,
Where they wallow in their fear...
And where is here?

The insolent, negligent,
Horrid looking and pestilent,
Filthy, ugly, shameless debauchery,
Disgusting beastly, reckless monstrosity,
Philosophizing, prognosticating,
And all around propagating
A view of life that breeds nothing fulfilling

Purposeless...

The Dance Part II

This is what lack of sleep brings
A Dance 2

Dancing true
It means to dance for you
and no one else, except the one
Who gave you the ability to move

The one who gave you life
Who blew the breath in you
The one who daily gives you power
And your strength renews

See if we dance for others
Before we learn to dance true..
Then really who's song are you singing/life are you living?
What song are you dancing to?

When its time to perform
You know that dance
The one we're all preparing to do
Will you be there to perform
Will you be ready to dance true?

I think of all the friends I have
And you know -
They know I'm a dancing fool
But do they know that inside me
I ask myself the question-
"Who/why/what really are you?"

Why are you always dancing?
Why are you always smiling
Why are you always running, (Yes I say it) like a fool?

The answers I come up with
Are usually all the same:

Because dancing keeps me sane
Because smiling keeps me tame
Because running keeps my body in tune..

And running is also a great way
To keep my life course
Close to the one who:
Is the "Chief perfecter of our faith"
who left an example for me and you.
--An example for us to follow his steps closely
Now mostly..

I've pretty much just looked at his steps and said..
"Gee..... those are some beautiful markings..

Whenever he walked
He placed his feet like so..
then whenever Jehovah would will for him
in that direction he'd go..

I mean what a beautiful thing it would be
If such a faith I could possess..
But nevertheless
I cannot stress
Cause DUH!
Obviously stress will not lead to true happiness

Which I also know
Does not come from the comparing
Or from reaching out for some lavish goal or unattainable dream
But it comes from the EFFORTS we make
and from the Undeserved Kindness of our God and his King
So I shall sing, and yes I'll run and yes I'll dance
for the King..
For though my dance will never be like his
Nor my run ever fit his footprints
Nor my smile every brighten the moments
Of as many as his does or even did
I will dance my butt off
Just so I can say with confidence
"I am a Christian"

And When its time to perform
You know that dance
The one we're all preparing to do
Will I be there to perform
Will I be ready to dance true?

Honestly, right now,
I'm probably about as sure as you.

;-)

Opportunity

'How does a person know whether or not they are passing up opportunities
unless they investigate the possibilities'

I would have said
specifically
"take the chance and .."
investigate the possibilities..

It would be good first to see
Just what it is
Yes.. Lets take time and identify
Opportunity??

The Ditionarys view, in rhyme:
is 1: A favorable or suitable occasion or time
is 2: A favorable or advantageous circumstance-
Which, here again we see the implication of chance

Back to point:
"How does a person know whether or not they are passing up opportunities
unless they investigate possibilities"

Jehovah is the king of opportunites
and the thing about his, is
that they are simple and recurring..
Other opportunities are merely,
Distracting
So investigating the possibilities
May not be in line with the issue of "life-saving"
The responsibility we owe as christians
In these tumultuous last days - And
Not to mention our own peculiar "things"-And
Lets Never forget!!
The heart is treacherous
And desperate
Who,
Can know it?

Dont be fooled by the hearts insinuations
Or the persuasiveness of its motivations
For an opportunity may be a crushing experience
Hidden behind a guise of brilliance......

And what one will be left with
Jah has promised..
Is a heart broken due to "taking a chance"
So lets not leave our hearts open
To "A favorable or advantageous circumstance"

Thats how I see those Opportunities...

So you say you want Golden???

Y'all keep search for what Chrisette said
trying to find you a commitment that's golden
But in case you missed the memo
You yourself, have gotto be a precious gem

Cause a real christian man
is searching for a Golden woman
to be more than him
tho we're all imperfect humans.
He's gonna want a golden figurehead
an example for him and possibly his children

Now don't get it twisted
I aint saying i'm "that" golden man
but the fact that I can say that
is putting me in a decent percentage, than
The scrubs who have not yet accepted that to be golden
Is to be humble men...
I aint there yet
Again.. Don't get it twisted

I know some are gonna get...(insert your word of aggression)
And try to write a response and.
Scream (in a nice poetic way) at me for being
this that and the other,
Then
Tell me 'who in the world do I think I am'
I'ma tell that brotha or sistah right then-
I'm Just Another man
tryna look out for my brethren and my Sistrens

And then I'll tell them
this flow of info came into my head when
I was thinking of that song
Do you know the one-
about scrubs and the remix about pigeons.
((Don't ask me how I know it...
I was in high school back then
and I'll plead the 5th as soon as I can)

So Listen WOMEN!

STOP looking at scrubs
Cause u gon' end up in a marriage with no luuv
and wisdom gon mock you like crazy
When that day commes

Then what'll you do?
You cant try to escape by betraying the truth
Your comfort will come from Jehovah
and your friends will pray for you
but they'll do it while shaking their heads like
hmm hmm hmm...

(To be continued)

The Dance 1

The Dance-

"I could have missed the pain
But i'd have had to miss the dance"

Are our lives really better left to chance-
Does it even matter if I miss the dance
Maybe...

Still,
I'd like someone to dance with me
at least right now I'm thinking of partnering..
Of course...
I know (to others)
Its seemingly the practical thing..
But realistically speaking
A dance of practically
Isn't very exiting..

Yet still I watch her
Moving her dancing feet
Thinking,
Maybe I could join her
On that unique dances beat
the beat of life
where dancers meet

Can my beat be hers too
Should I take a chance..
I think, discreetly to myself
hmm...

One cannot, and will not know love
If they don't, if they won't
Dance true..

Maybe I can wait
I'll dance with someone soon
this systems gonna end
and I want to see it thru...
So for now Jehovah,
I'll dance for you..

Does anyone remember when sin began?

Well let's think back to when Adam first sinned

Lets say a star on this side of the Milky Way began shining
and since then that lights been traveling
cause that's what light does, it moves
through the universe and the expanse within

Now Listen in
as I relate to you
something wonderful and magnificent
That we can only now presume,
To venture, to postulate, its real significane

One of christ brothers
has privileged us with an illustration
in this time of the end, to look to the heavens
to our 'soon to be' father,
for some of us, already our friend

There's a beam of light
traveling through the heavens
will that beam ever end
i'm not a scientist,
but as a realist,
and what's important is when.
yes when that light hits
as he mentioned,
our own little galaxies, other end..
Someone'll probably be a good hundred thousand or more years old...
Give or take a few milleniums..

What'll be the talk of the town
amongst him and his friends,

Will it be the new song he wrote
commemorating his first talk he'll be giving
in front of an assembly of brothers
and sisters who they themselves are celebrating,
there thousandth something anniversary of this coool "new" building
built to the praise and glory of Jehovah
who has become all things..
to people of all sorts..

Stop! Stop for a second.. Think...
.
What joy that brings???

Who'll remember when sin began then?
It won't even matter because sin will be at an end
Jehovah is vindicated as rightful sovereign to all again
And we'll be able to live out our lives as men and women..
So until then.....
Let me ask you a question?

Do you/Does anyone remember when sin began?

"Hmmm...I don't know
I guess that memories fading...."

Yeah, I Thought so...

The end...till then ;-)

Those Eyes...

Her eyes - Those eyes
are like a mirror of my happiness
I stare deeply and time just flies
As I ponder their uniqueness..
It makes me weak in the knees then
As it creates within me an:

Inexplicable inevitable infatuation, inciting
overwhelming ostentatious orchistration of
simple sentences selected sererenely.
then the thoughts thrill
me, making my mind

excited, eliciting extreme emotions,
and an anticipation, allowing
for free frollicking feelings,
which waken what would
normally never needed nurturing...

But now it does and it wont let up
'till it drives me to insanity
Yup.. Thats what those eyes to do me..

Can I love freely?

"Can I love freely?"
"Not in the Bloom Of Youth sweety.."

"Ignorance is blissfull sweetness-
Until we are swamped with the accurate realness-
That there is no longer such a thing as being truly innocent -
There is the watery deep of naiveties... freeness"

There was a time when I loved freely
But as time past I came to the realization that really
What I thought was freely
Was simple naievity
And a youthful heart free of lusts, lies and immorality
And the pollution there-in
Which comes from this world we reside in
The "air" of this system
That irradiates our hearts with the pollutant
Of a focus on Self-ish-ness...
Especially this Americas renowned reputation of Me-ism
Which does nothing more than amplify the existing inclination
Which we all inhereted due to imperfection

"But I'm talkbout about a true innocent love between friends"

Can we really have that while/as this system ends?
I guess it all depends
On who we choose to take in as friends
Because friendship tends,
to come with certain requirements
that if we dont choose right
We can be left with several/more and more dissapointments

Which doesnt mean one or the other didnt do their best
It could simply mean that their best
Isn't the same sort as the rest
Or the same sort we would expect

So I infer that with free love, comes a level of respect
and the understanding of others as we too keep ourself modest..
For who are we to think we love the best, more than the rest?

Maybe loving freely is our test
For God loved the world so much he gave His Best..

So then in answer.
Yes
Free love is no mere jest,
but the goal for which we strive
and yes
I accept the challenge too
To do my best
In joining you

In gaining back naievities freeness
While being free of youthful ignorance
So lets love free
Which I think, Just might be
The "laws" fullfillment?

Poetry 3/1/08 - A Reputation Of Happy..

From youth, one thing I wanted, was to vigorously
Strive and derive from my life, ever so joyously
The happiness that comes when you know you're reputably
A person well - known for human decency
But in the midst of all that hopefull fancy
What I ended up with was the same Foolery..
What was/ is it you ask me..
I found myself being known as to always be
The one who'd call down judgement on he or she or we
Which made absolutely no sense you see
Cause how, well better yet why, would I - Reasonably
Judge you and at the same time knowingly
Be called your associate? Doesn't that automatically judge me?

Ok maybe Ok No let me stop.. For a certainty
I perceive.. That I'm an idiot.. honestly
So there were occasions where I stupidly
Called down evil upon another without realistically
Saying.. hmm what if that weren't he or she, but me?
Man oh man.. what a problem that would be
No one wants the brunt end of that stick homie..
Jesus is the judge, and like his father, he loves his exclusivity
So don't mess with the son and his father-G.O.D

But still, nah I aint with it, these were my friends my pals my buddies
My associates, my acquaintances my courtees yeah I said it.. courtees
Yet they still said to me-
At least Implyingly
Don't you -JUDGE ME!!!
At the end of the day I just wouldn't acquiesce to believe
That what they said was true and I had become indeed
The thing I feared the most, my worst enemy..

So what was I doing if not speaking judgmentally?
Stating the statutes and qualities
Of the one who is, was and will always be
Just doing it naturally
As a nave youth would- distastefully
Lacking one essential quality
The ability and importantly the desire to speak tactfully
That comes when you embrace One-whole-heartedly
The beauty and intrinsic- essentially- completely
Untidily - THE Only quality that is said to BE
The defining essence Of the one above
Love

I lacked it..
Though not completely..
For I still was able to maintain friends, who rather discreetly
With Jehovah's help, discipline me
With that agape and philia-love and pretty much beat me
To a bloody miserable pulp of moldable decency..
They loved me and I know deeply
That they were sent for me
Cause like you all - I'm needy…
I be screaming to Jehovah LOVE ME!!!
(Even tho I'm dirty and filthy… nevermind that back to this)
And I intuitively
Adopted the loving advice they gave me
Till it became intrinsically
A part of my new-forming personality
Ephesians 4:22 and 23
Speaks of putting on Jehovah's "New personality"
And being made new in our mentality
The force that actuates "Who we be"
So who I be, and what I shall become you see
Is perfect in love, as I apply John 17:3
Take in more knowledge, accurately
Of the father above and his Son, while studiously
Endeavoring always to prayerfully and analytically
Examine the consciousness of my spirituality
And the need that Jehovah placed within me
(Matthew 5:3)
So then I will truly be -
friends
Carrying a reputation of Happy…

My Peoples, who've seen me through...

Love is Who..You?

Love is him- Not me and you...
Though if you think about it-
Its all of us too..
But only in a mirrorlike reflection of the truth.

And the truth is this
You will know it and it will set you free
'If you obey my commandments..
Then you love me'

What did he command us to be?
Kind, gentle, long-suffering
Free of selfishness, greed, animosity
Thinking first of not ourself but of he or she..
A Truth
Love is thinking not of oneself but thinking of We

What more is it

You...

Its not often that I sleep well
Except for a dream or two
About you..
So I try to count my sheep well,
When I think of dreaming of you..

What Is It?

Such beauty that for a moment time stands still
And all you can do is focus on it..
Its contagious.
It sparks the beauty in u
To release itself too
Especially when it comes
From that special one..

It could be wide, small, thin, huge, bright, light,
Or even just a...
There it goes again... Just a twinkle.
Ahhh
It just makes your day

Its gone now
But it'll come back again.
You'll make sure of it
Cause that beautiful feeling,
Yeah you want more of it..
What sparks it?

Judgmentally

Poetry- 2/20/08 - A work in progress...

Literally
I don't think I can take it anymore -- Why...Cause I'm sore
My mind and heart -- Is being torn apart
Rent two ways -- In an interior war
That just keeps going -- and whats more
I was ignoring it -- Abhorring it
Despising it even -- Thinking why god am I such a .. heathen
Even..
Don't I -- Haven't I
Built for you so much love --That like a dove
I fly high -- Bringing light to the sky
So why?
Must I fight -- Tooth, nail, sword, dagger, and knife
Trying hard to retard -- This cerebral plight
Of inclination versus a stipulated reluctancy
Cause only you know what my heart truly is -- Cause you see,
I'm not there yet,
Where my hearts sposed to be
And I fear yet,
I might miss the mark and loose the key
To the kingdom of life free -- That belongs to those like me
If only I wasn't simply -- Reluctantly -- But constantly
Fighting hard in the struggle -- That warriors breed
Yes the warfare we face isn't phy-si-cally
But See, the mind takes a toll on our imperfect human bodies


Physically,
I be the type you'll see
Jumping all round seemingly -- "Acting" crazy
But inside I'm spent
Why? -- Cause no matter how hard I try
I couldn't fight or come around to accepting why
I --- Yes I,
Not the other millions who've repent - Tid
But the one who sits here truly spent - And


Spiritually
The only thing that makes me move as expect - Tid
Is the (universal truth)/(wonderful gift)/(helping hand): that he's direct -Tid
His spirit and angels who've protect - tid
His earthly servants, who haven't defect - Tid
To Satans side and disrespect - Tid
So The only thing that really matters in perspect - tive
Is not whether I or they cry, fly, stand, fall, die or live..


But the sanctity of his unmatched sovereinty, dignity, splendor..

Forever and ever ...and ever... and ever....

Water Water Everywhere

Water Water Everywhere......And not a drop to drink.
A line from a poem that makes you stop and think
About the profoundess of a time
When everything was blue and pink
Girl, boy, friend, foe- no drama
We was all in-sync
With ourselves and our healths and the simple beauty of it
School life, that time, simplicity...
Its what u make it..
It could come in a moment or u could fake it..
Simplicty my friends, is a course hard to find but when u do-
Its unmistaken-
Its beauty and intricate sensitivity to the senses,
.. seems to contradict its own defining phrases
Yeah...
Simplicity is a genius in fools clothing
Reflected in a line that makes u think
Water Water everywhere.....And not a drop to drink...