Judgmentally

Poetry- 2/20/08 - A work in progress...

Literally
I don't think I can take it anymore -- Why...Cause I'm sore
My mind and heart -- Is being torn apart
Rent two ways -- In an interior war
That just keeps going -- and whats more
I was ignoring it -- Abhorring it
Despising it even -- Thinking why god am I such a .. heathen
Even..
Don't I -- Haven't I
Built for you so much love --That like a dove
I fly high -- Bringing light to the sky
So why?
Must I fight -- Tooth, nail, sword, dagger, and knife
Trying hard to retard -- This cerebral plight
Of inclination versus a stipulated reluctancy
Cause only you know what my heart truly is -- Cause you see,
I'm not there yet,
Where my hearts sposed to be
And I fear yet,
I might miss the mark and loose the key
To the kingdom of life free -- That belongs to those like me
If only I wasn't simply -- Reluctantly -- But constantly
Fighting hard in the struggle -- That warriors breed
Yes the warfare we face isn't phy-si-cally
But See, the mind takes a toll on our imperfect human bodies


Physically,
I be the type you'll see
Jumping all round seemingly -- "Acting" crazy
But inside I'm spent
Why? -- Cause no matter how hard I try
I couldn't fight or come around to accepting why
I --- Yes I,
Not the other millions who've repent - Tid
But the one who sits here truly spent - And


Spiritually
The only thing that makes me move as expect - Tid
Is the (universal truth)/(wonderful gift)/(helping hand): that he's direct -Tid
His spirit and angels who've protect - tid
His earthly servants, who haven't defect - Tid
To Satans side and disrespect - Tid
So The only thing that really matters in perspect - tive
Is not whether I or they cry, fly, stand, fall, die or live..


But the sanctity of his unmatched sovereinty, dignity, splendor..

Forever and ever ...and ever... and ever....