Always yours?

I mean I love her

but I kinda dont even know where to begin

I mean

I was never hers but I was always hers

and my heart would burst as her words quenched my thirst

And I loved her first.. but she knew not my hearts deep devotion

For she thought my love, just an overblown emotion

Infatuated with the idea of amusing musings and tidal waves of music moving

A tsunami of feelings bleeding... my heart stops beating...

I'ma miss her...

I mean I love her

but I kinda dont even know where to begin

Cuz you see

I was never hers but I was always hers

you feel me?

See she smiled through her words...

colon dash parenthases - or she winked at me semi-colon dash... you feel me?

So i smiled back in words like

How you doing sweety?

You alright out there lady?

Alls well on your end baby?

Pchhhheeewww please

I aint callin nobody baby..

but i said it in my mind you see

cuz my minds hides behind prudency

since my heart tries to play tricks on me

Success is keeping the game going...

Too bad now...

she beat me...

I mean I love her

but I kinda dont even know where to begin

I mean

I was never hers but I was always hers

and well... we'll always be friends...

I mean.. will always be friends -

be used when friendship ends

for the sake of reason

when feelings end seasons of love,

how do you measure... measure our years???

I'm gonna measure it in excitement...

Every new things was a dream come true

As if the meaning of a new word,

A new article or experience given ,

starting the relationship brand new

Every new line written in our notebook of a relationship

was scribbled in sharpee ink- because forever was on my menu...

Though i think never was the chosen venu....

And if you look at Sharpee scribble

you'll see blotches of color, coroding the words of our beautiful story

showing choppy tales to the world

only the two of us know it fully.. but even in me its clearly fading...

Now I'm fading

as I think... as I measure

as I count the ways..

countdown the days..

Till all I can do is smile...

and fade into the background..